Blue Moon Rising: Fanfic: "Alone" by Hjmugillecuty

RATING: FRC [GF]

SUMMARY: Fred's alone and trying to figure it out.

SPOILERS: Up to and including "Shiny Happy People".

PAIRING: Wes/Fred

DISCLAIMER: These characters do not belong to me; they belong to their original creators and I make no profit.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Archive permission granted as always to Whole New World and Blue Moon Rising. Enjoy and send feedback if you can.

Fred's POV:

I've lost them, all of them. I had friends, a family, awesome, amazing people and she, it, JASMINE, took them all away from me. She put Cordy in a coma, from which she might never awake. Then she caught Angel, Connor, Lorne, Charles and Wesley in her thrall. A thrall so strong that not even Wesley's love for me could break it. And that scares me more than what I saw of Jasmine. I saw death and disease, rot and decay and that frightens me. But the fact that the man I love and who loves me could brush that love away and betray me that is terrifying.

I didn't want to stop believing. I didn't choose to see her true face. It would be so much easier to still believe, to not question. If all that mattered were being near Jasmine, life would be so simple. But somehow I lost it. I don't know how. When I recover from last night I'll have to figure it out and see if I can free the others.

But should I free them? The guilt will be strong. Wesley may not forgive himself for betraying me again. He has never truly betrayed me, or hurt me, when he was in his right mind. I had hoped he would believe me this time. I needed him, only him, to believe me. Wesley always believes me outright. The others question and make me doubt. Wesley never does. I was certain that if I went to him he would believe me. That his trust and love for me would be stronger than Jasmine's power. But she took that away. She took the choice from him; she took his will.

I need to go underground. Back into hiding. They will be coming for me and if they catch me, I won't get a choice. It's been nearly two years since I had to hide, but I remember how. Five years of skills don't simply disappear. I'll have to ditch Wesley's car, I'll mail him the keys, and then I'll never be in the same place twice. Charles, Angel, Connor and Wesley might think they are hunters, but they've never had prey like me. Until I can figure out why my thrall was broken, I'll be on the move. Full start. I'm gone.

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