Blue Moon Rising: Fanfic: "Clean" by Hjmugillecuty

RATING: FRC [GF]

SUMMARY: We're still alive.

SPOILERS: Up to and including "Peace Out".

PAIRING: Wes/Fred

DISCLAIMER: These characters do not belong to me; they belong to their original creators and I make no profit.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: I can't believe the season is over, but hooray for renewal!! Archive permission granted as always to Whole New World and Blue Moon Rising. Enjoy!

Fred's POV:

Clean. I'm finally clean. After days of running around in these same clothes, falling down hills, fighting in sewers, and being caged in the basement, I can finally take them off. I think I'll burn them. Although, these are also the clothes I was wearing when I saw Jasmine's true face, Wesley betrayed me, I realized how to disenthrall the others, I shot Angel, and we released the others. I was wearing them the last time I saw Angel, Cordelia, and Connor. I'll definitely burn them, too many horrible memories.

I'm in my old room. It was left alone, left the same as I left it. No one moved in while I was gone. And there is hot water in the shower. She said it would be a while until Angel came back; apparently he is still alive. So we are each taking some time to get cleaned up, one by one, the others guarding the hotel downstairs.

If Angel is still alive, I wonder where he is. Is he searching for Cordelia; that is if she hasn't been eaten? Has he found Connor, who left us hours ago, presumably questioning and doubting Jasmine? Or is he hunting for Jasmine? Her name may just weaken her; it doesn't necessarily kill her. If Angel is alive, he needs to come back. Something is stirring, if she has come back. And Wesley needs support. Seeing her again is hurting him. He has not forgiven himself for what happened to her. He carries so much guilt with him every day, but this was something he might have exorcised from the load. But now she is back and he cannot forget.

And I cannot make him forget. All I can do is stay by his side. Tell him through my touchs and glances that I support him, that I still love him. That I will be with him not matter what. For we are still alive, we survived it all. Rain of fire, endless night, the Beast, Angelus, Cordelia, Jasmine, after all of it we are still here. Together.

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